This is a tumblelog, kinda like a blog but with short-form, mixed-media posts with stuff I like. Scroll down a bit to start reading, or a bit more to read more about me.
My Best and My Little :]TEN & NIK @ Caring SHOS
I still laugh when I watch this.
Alright, for the past how many months I’ve been contemplating whether or not I should start a Tumblr. And after talking to Jos for about 1.5 seconds, he was able to convince me…sooo TA-DA!
I don’t want to live forever but I am afraid of dying. I’m not scared of the concept nor how it’ll happen but I am afraid. I’m afraid that when I’m dying that I won’t have the feeling that I have lived.
So I don’t know if people are brought into my life or if I’m brought into theirs. Either way life is full of opportunities and I’m a bit sad that I don’t take them.
I’ve always been one to over analyze a situation. I’ve always been one to care way too much. And I’ve always been one to be the nicer guy. Yeah this post is leading to the ever cliche topic of a significant other.
First off I’d like to say that this isn’t directed at anyone and that this is just my heart speaking for my mind as I haven’t followed my heart in a long time. I’d say I haven’t been doing so cause quite frankly it’s been scared. I do have to admit putting yourself out there is scary. We aren’t in high school anymore where significant others come and go. I don’t know about you but I’m sure not looking just to be another guy on someone’s list, as I’m not just some other guy.
As simp as this post feels it’s coming from my heart. I miss being the one that would protect her. I miss being the first person she would talk to in the morning and the last person before she would go to sleep. I miss knowing exactly what to do that would make her laugh when she was the most pissed at me. I miss staying in and renting movies. I miss surprises. I miss being able to be me.
Whoever she is, she’s out there somewhere and hopefully she misses these things just as much as I do.